Thursday Inspiration from Bob Marley

We've had a rough winter. The number of days below zero would account for my seasonal misery at the moment. There are many instances in our lives where we can feel this way and not just because of the weather. Things happen and we approach road blocks on a constant basis. A thing I do to keep myself going, is to hum a little song I know called Three Little Birds.....

"Don't worry about a thing,

'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,

'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',

Smiled with the risin' sun,

Three little birds

Pitch by my doorstep

Singin' sweet songs

Of melodies pure and true,

Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:"

Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing,

'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing,

'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',

Smiled with the risin' sun,

Three little birds

Pitch by my doorstep

Singin' sweet songs

Of melodies pure and true,

Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:"

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!

Every little thing gonna be all right. Don't worry!"

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry!

"'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,

'Cause every little thing gonna be all right" - I won't worry!

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,

'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."

Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, oh no!

'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!

~ Bob Marley

Perhaps the humming allow is a great stress soother but there is something about these lyrics that resonates with me.. and my kiddies too. This is their night time lullaby. We also play the Legends CD softly as they go down.

With all the hats I'm juggling right now, I've found the urge to throw in the towel on many things including my education. I'm almost done with school, and yet it seems so unbearable. It's the first time I've had to think about if I really want to finish this.

Peace.

This is my Peace.

Every now and then we all need a little inspiration to get us through.

I'm looking forward to the warm weather and starting my first garden.

I'm looking forward to being done my degree.

I'm looking forward to remodeling our home.

I'm looking forward to our Disney vacation in September!

What are you looking forward to?

I wish I had more time, to do the things I really want to do. I wish I was a stay at home mom, devoting my time to my children and family and me. But I don’t have that luxury. I work full time, sometimes odd hours and weekends At the end of the day the exhaustion kicks my butt and puts all the things I dream about during the day in the back of my head. I wish I had more time for photography, oh how I love capturing those moments in time that are so precious! I wish I had more time for crafting, creating those personal gestures that warm the heart like cocoa in the winter. I wish I was more organized and had the energy to have the picture perfect pottery barn home.

I wish I had the time and knowledge to make this bloggy mama thing work, and not just some random journal entries to vent here and there.

I can be inconsistent. Some might say this is a downfall, I think it just makes me unique. I need to keep my brain stimulated with new things. Or maybe I just enjoy so many things and want to take in and experience all it is that this messy life has to offer.

All these ideas, what seem to be great ideas, just go to waste.
I could be amazing, if I had more time.

Being a working Mom sucks

I'm exhausted.

I started a new job about three weeks ago. A full time job, something I haven't done in two years. Something I haven't done while being a mother. I didn't want to go back to work, it was more a matter of finances and a great opportunity. I don't like it though, being a full time working mom. I hate missing out on the pajama mornings and spending the day with my little one.

Today was Bella's first day without tears going to daycare. Daycare makes me uneasy. My Mom picked her up today, (I'm required to stay late two nights a week at my job) and she told me a lovely story about how she couldn't get into the class room because two little boys had a table propped against it and they were standing on it. When she knocked on the door, one of the little boys jumped down and began pushing the table out of the way, while the other boy was still standing on the table! I asked her if the teacher was in the room and she was. Does this seem unsafe to anyone that two year olds are allowed to do this?

1)Children shouldn't be allowed to stand on tables


2)They shouldn't be standing on tables while blocking the door


3)They shouldn't be pushing tables around while children are standing on them

I've got a headache and a million thoughts bouncing around in my head. I feel nauseous.

I'm going to be a working Mom

At first, I thought I was just terrified to go back to work. I got a sick feeling in my gut the days following the official offer letter. It has been two years since I worked full time in a serious career. I feared, I'd lack the drive and motivation I once had. I questioned my decision over and over and only began to doubt more when we went looking at daycares.

"Is this the right decision?" I don't know. I'm tired of worrying about money and our old cars and all the problems. I had hoped I could stay at home until all of our child(and the future children, that haven't even been born yet) was in school, but it doesn't look that way and I am disappointed.

When it comes down to it, that is what has given me the uneasy nerves. I almost feel as if I failed at "our" plan.

The funny thing is, this job opportunity is amazing and I didn't even dream of these benefits or salary they have offered me. I have been extremely lucky and blessed with this great new circumstance but my own selfishness has gotten in the way.

I'm really excited now, to start my new job on Monday! I've got my motivation back and I look forward to all the things I will be able to provide for my family. Weekends off are great too and we will have some fun quality time together.  Now we will be able to take our trip, this coming holiday season, to visit family in Arizona!